Introduction: All my road before me : the man behind the books -- Bits of a life : a look at C.S. Lewis -- The loss of conviction : World War I and atheism -- Conviction rediscovered : Lewis's conversion -- The problem of pain : all nonsense questions are unanswerable -- I shall never be a biped again : a discussion of A grief observed -- An approach to mourning : our own "grief observed" -- Only the life I've lived : some concluding remarks.