"In this brave and beautiful memoir ... a woman chronicles how her marriage devolved from a love story into a shocking tale of abuse--examining the tenderness and violence entwined in the relationship, why she endured years of physical and emotional pain, and how she eventually broke free."-- From the publisher.

Blue -- Queen of Swords -- The perfect family -- Runaway -- Would I rather? -- Saved -- I love you -- Demolition -- That hot, dry summer -- Take me to the river -- Broken things -- Playlist for a broken heart -- His ghost in her bones -- Christmas baby -- What I didn't write -- A hard heart -- The archivist -- It will look like a sunset -- An incomplete list of reasons he was violent -- I just don't know what to believe -- Goodbye, sweet girl -- Epilogue: The house in the hollow.