From political wunderkind and former army intelligence officer Jason Kander comes a haunting, powerful memoir about politics, PTSD, impossible choices--and how sometimes walking away from the chance of a lifetime can be the greatest decision of all.

The uniform --An ordinary day (in Jalalabad) -- Running Angry -- The shame spiral staircase -- I should be better by now -- Young man in a hurry -- The cool kids' table -- I don't want to do this anymore -- Jason Kander? He died -- The monster -- The stuff I wish someone had told me.