Robert Blackburn Knight discusses how he overcame the trauma of childhood sexual abuse, describing the psychological and physical impact the abuse had on him and the steps he took to come to terms with it.

Foreword /Michael Jarvis, PhD -- Robert: A Proposition from My Inner Child June-October 1987 -- My Experiences with Hypnotherapy -- I Awaken the First Monster -- More Family Skeletons -- Splits, Ego States, and Multiple Personalities -- Young One, Honey, Dream Woman, and Bear: Memories Are Made of This November 1987-February 1988 -- Struggling to Believe the Memories -- Young One: A Second Child Within and a Second Monster -- Block That Fantasy!--Or Not? -- The Insiders -- More Splitting -- Child Abuse and Its Discontents March-May 1988 -- The Rewards and Frustrations of Amnesia -- Coping with Wine and Weed -- "The Courage to Heal," the Cowardice of Denial -- 100 Ways to Kill My Father, Give or Take 85 -- Trying to Show Kindness to the Inner Children -- Anger, Despair, Self-Hate, Binges June-November 1988 -- I Try to Hide, but They Still Find Me -- Eddie and How He Died -- This Is Not What's Meant by a Rich Inner Life -- Feeling Abandoned -- My Man-of-Anger Takes Charge November 1988-April 1989 -- Massaging the Feelings Loose -- A Child Molester in a Survivors' Group -- The Insiders and I Deal with Betrayal -- The Return of Red: That's What You Get for Theorizing -- Trauma, Ego States, and Why I'm Not a Multiple -- Sex Rears Several of Its Heads April-August 1989 -- Working It Out with Linda -- Remembering Abuse, Reading About Recovery -- Big Honey, the Champion -- Grace, the Sexually Needy -- Earthquakes, Within and Without September-November 1989 -- Another Group, Another Perp -- Torture -- Loma Prieta.